Why I write...

  The Alzheimer's Society said I should keep a journal, so that's why I am writing here.

I have been writing here and there. Yes, it helps to get my thoughts out. I feel like I am not feeling, maybe sort of numb. 

And yet aware of how much this will impact our lives, now that it's "real".

I was convinced they would say it's nothing, that there is nothing wrong with him, and that I was over-reacting. 

It makes me feel immobilized, and yet feel like I should be doing something, I should be acting/planning/doing! 

And yet I cannot think of what that would be. 

Money/finances constantly worries me.

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Frontotemporal dementia (FTD) or frontotemporal degenerations (or Pick's Disease) refers to a group of disorders caused by progressive nerve cell loss in the brain's frontal lobes (the areas behind your forehead) or its temporal lobes (the regions behind your ears). 

Behavior variant frontotemporal dementia (bvFTD) is characterized by prominent changes in personality and behavior that often occur in people in their 50s and 60s, but can develop as early as their 20s or as late as their 80s. 

In behavior variant frontotemporal dementia, the nerve cell loss is most prominent in areas that control conduct, judgment, empathy and foresight, among other abilities.